cinderella story (?)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

{wat u say..}

i gt ur reply..
thanx for actually even reading this blog..
but im putting an end to everything..

u?waiting for us?
u dono how to ask ah?
do u know why we always nv ask u out?
DO U KNOW WHY?
IS BCZ WE ARE SCARE OF U.
BCZ WHENEVER WE ASK U OUT,
U ALWAYS HAVE A LOT,A LOT OF EXCUSES THAT U WILL NV TURN OUT!
AND UR MX WILL BE ANGRY AND ALL TT STUFF.
WE EXPERIENCE IT B4 ALR.
U WAN US TO FEEL THE SAME AGAIN?
YA,U SAID HE NOW CHANGE,
BUT BCZ WE EXPERIENCE IT B4,
SO DO U THINK WE WILL STILL ASK U OUT?
U DONO HOW TO ASK AH?
den wat else do u still wan me to know?
i am feeling really terrible.
u say joyce is another u?
NO,FYI,SHE IS NT.
we are close?
NO.
onli hei mun.
ya,me and joyce are pretty close.
is tt wat u think?
for UR INFORMATION,
HELL NO.
BCZ,
I CANNOT BE MYSELF WHEN I AM WIF THEM.
THE ONLI PERSON I CAN DO TT IS ONLI U AND MANDY.
BCZ ONLI U TWO UNDERSTANDS ME.
BUT WHERE WERE U WHEN I NEEDED U SO BADLY?
WANTED TO ASK U AND MANDY PLUS GWEN OUT,
but mandy will have sth on,den gwen will say no.
u leh?
I DON EVEN WANNA ASK AT ALL.
AT ALL.
i have no choice but to find them.
u think i am havin a gd time wif them?
i am nt.
is bcz band time i have no frenes,tts why.
do u know how impt u and mandy are for me?
bcz i don have ANOTHER COMPANY LIKE U and mandy.
i don have frenes alr.
i dono who to call,who to chat,who to quarrel and gossip wif.
I DON HAVE.
wat can i say?u will nv understand.
and i don need u to understand.
why?
bcz in ur heart,we/i don matter at all.
u have liliang and nic and etc don u?
well wat shall i say,
GD FOR U.
well done sweetheart.
i tt u will nv be like last time de me.
whenever i have a bf,i always left u guys alone.
i tt U will understand.
but it turns out,no.
u nv.
bcz all u have in ur mind,is onli him rite?
wat can i say?
i have nth to say.
and why the hell am i cryin when i have typing?
IS BCZ I FELT REALLY TERRIBLE WHEN I AM TYPING THIS.
I'M REALLY SICK AND TIRED OF U.
U WILL NV UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH U AND MANDY ACTUALLY MEANS TO ME.
U WILL NV EVER KNOW.
AND PLEASE,DON PROMISE ME ANYTING ANYMORE.

every word u type.. im crying inside my heart...
im trying my best to not cry..
im sry i made u feel so bad
if i explain.. will it make it worst..
if i nv explain.. will it be btr..
someone pls tell me..
im really sry....
tats all i can say now...