cinderella story (?)

Friday, November 28, 2008

{thru all these times..}

finally came to the tot tat
things changed...
since only a couple of people know this blog
and i bet
no one is gg to read this blog
as though it does not exist...
im gg to say everything out super straight here..

i read cass's blog
somebody told me sth and i am here to reply U.
my dear,don make promises when u know u cant keep it.
i don wan to have high hopes and den u shattered it again.
all talk but no action from u?
u're always like tis.when will u ever change?for us?
u wont,of cz.cz u onli have him and him in ur mind.
and like i say again,pls,don make promises wif us if u know u cant keep it
ya i read it.. and i know u refering to me
i dun want to make empty promises
and its not tat i dun want to make any actions to like asking u all out
during the holidays
whenever i go out with my friends
its always they asked me out
so i go if possible most of the time
but if no one did
i will just find me...
this end of year holiday is like almost the last real holiday time i can spend with him
im not sure whether he will continue to study
or will he head to NS next year
if he does
our time will be much more shorten...
i dun want to regret it..
i know im being selfish here... but i know i hv much more time with all of u in sch..
but i already realised how much i hv alr drifted apart from u all<<
joyce is like the new me in the group
all of u are hanging out well with her
im sry tat alot of time i wasnt able to be with u
but im trying my best to plan out the time i hv.. with my family and friends and him...
he become more understanding to me hanging out with u all
so all these times i was waiting for u all to call me out too..
im sry i let u down...
but im not exactly in very happy and gd mood alot of times..
and believe me..
my heart shattered and fall apart much more and the STUPIDEST me had place
my hopes way up to high and shattered so much time...

recently i hvent been in touch with my friends at all..
mandy,cass,heimun,gwen,joa,sarah and nic
i hvent seen all of them in weeks..
and i know our relationship will nv much be like before...
especially with mandy,cass,heimun and gwen..
i let them down...
its my fault...
but i always feel left out whenever its with them...
im really sry..

i really want to say a whole lots of thanx to Liang
u always been there for me although alot of times i cant be with u
u really are my true best friend
i cant find anyone btr den u
u r always there to be my listening ear..
especially when problems and the quarrels with laogong came..
i really love u alot..
u r my most treasured friend tat i want to keep by my side always!!
u r the one who had nv abandon me even when i strted my relationship
with laogong..i love u mummi liliang..!!
i guess i can say u r the one true best friend i hv now tat will always be so close to me
thanx!