cinderella story (?)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

{does bad things really happen on 911...}

i wanted to die so much today..
coz u said i change..
you said i was stubborn..
tat wasnt there when you first met me....
and even when i promise to change my temper...
does tat mean i cant do anything for u...
does tat mean u wont love me anymore...

u said tat u love me alot..
care of me alot..
but do u noe tat u left me gg bck home for
almost 1-1and a half month...
and everytime u said u will send me home..
u always fell asleep instead or just stayed at home and use com...
tot u say u noe me more den anyone...
cant u tell tat i really wanted u to send me home
even when i say no...
i was waiting for u to see thru me...
see thru my mind.. but u nv do..
do u noe how many times over this 1-1 and a half month
i would turn bck thinking tat u will come catch up with me
and give me a surprise..
but everytime it just false hope i give to myself...
a sentence always ring thru my mind...
我一路上不断回头看多么希望你会阻止我去流浪....

but guess this is not gg to happen...
u promised me tat u will come find me..
but tat nv will.. im always the one finding u..
does all these show u dun love me enough...
does this mean i shldnt trust u anymore...
but nvm... u my laogong.. i still will trust tat watever u do, u r doing for the best of me rite..
can u dun promise me things le ma..
coz almost everytime u nv keep it...
im scared of hving my hope getting up and falling down hard...

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

y didnt u reply me when i asked u if u sending me home...
was i annoying u..
coz u turn away from me..
i must hv annoyed u to sending me home...
guess everytime gg home myself will do..
should i nv bother u with this again..?

my mood had sux to the core..